It's dead [Rumor]

[jacob envy lorcan]

Jake was walking. Very slowly. Down a street. He kinda knew where he was. Well he knew where he wasn't, and where the place that he wasn't was. But that was it. He was walking down a very busy street, and could hear and smell the cars, so he was being careful not to run out into the street by accident. Kinda. Well he wasn't walking out into the street. But he wasn't exactly being careful. If he were to trip and fall over a crack or something in the cement maybe if he got lucky he would fall into traffic and get hit. But Jake knew that suicide wasn't an option any more.

Jake wasn't going anywhere, he just thought that if he took a walk maybe by some sort of luck (if you want to call it that) he would die. Car, murder, whatever. He wasn't looking for Rumor. He wanted to see her, but he didn't want to at the same time. Jake sighed. Just walking. Then he did trip. But he didn't fall into the street. He just fell forward. He his his knee hard, and his head on something. But he didn't die. Jake got back up. His sunglasses had fallen off, but Jake hadn't realized it. CRUNCH. Jake realized it when he stepped on them with his bear foot. Now his eyes were exposed for the world to see. His white foggy eyes. Jake sighed.

[rumor victoria chevelle]

Rumor walked quickly along the white washed side walk. There were little unnoticeable cracks that ran through the cement as if a small earth quake had made each crack with special care. Rumor was dressed for winter even though it wasnt anywhere near. She fancyed a black turtle neck sweater and black skinny jeans to match. Her shoes were nothing more that a tan version of the original hight top converse. It had been awhile since drama had represented it's self in her life.

She was actually kind of happy for once in her life. She was also incredibly healthy, no drugs or alcohol since she had gotten pregnant. The baby was coming along fine. She had gained some weight and her tummy stuck out a tiny bit. She was actualy kind of excited to have her little love soon. It was only like six more months till she would have her bundle of joy. She still hadnt picked any names our for the little sucker but she wanted him or hers name to be exceptionly nice.

Rumor had a light smile graced upon her pink rose pedal soft lips. Her new cherry red hair added extra wazzam. It fit her much better than the green. She turned a corner and saw someone that she wasnt expecting to see or more she didnt really want to see, jake. She knew he couldnt see so atleast she could try to sneek past him. Rumor continued to walk toward him avoiding looking at him.

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Jake smelled her the second she turned the corner. He didn't know what to do. His hands started to shake as he smelled her get closer. He was frozen in his spot, and she was getting even closer, and not saying anything. She was probably trying to get by without him noticing. Jake grimaced. She wasn't even going to say hi? No. Should Jake say hi? He wanted to, but it would all probably lead to more depression.

There was something else too. An other smell. Jake figured it out as she got closer. She was still pregnant. How long had it been? Would she let him be there, at least in the hospital when it happened? Would he get to see the kid? Or would Rumor hide the baby from him.


Jake was still frozen in place, unable to know what to do. She was getting close and Jake stumbled to the side, totally out of her way. He didn't know what he felt. Some mix of hate, love, fear- no horror, and sadness. And it shone out on his face as his head was turned in her direction. "Rumor" his lips made the word but nothing came out.

[rumor victoria chevelle]

Rumor couldnt help it she got once glance and in that glance she felt everything he was feeling. She saw him say her name without using vocals. It was so pitiful for her to see him so..... He almost looked dead. I mean she would basicly be considered the dead one. But jake not only looked dead but from the aura she saw and felt flowing off of him he seemed almost also dead inside.

She gasped at the blow that the emotion had thrown at her. She wasnt used to being like this. She closed her eyes and stopped next to jake. Hello Jake she said trying to sound normal. She bit the inside of her lip in thought that it might help calm her.

She hadnt ever noticed that she could feel jakes emotions. That was somthing she could feel in all people. But she could identify ever emotion that flowed through him and basicly make it hers. That was really weird. She hadnt ever had a connecton like that with anyone....... maybe. No she was inlove mykell and mykell only. She didnt have those kind of feelings for jake... Did she?

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Jake could smell her, hear her. She couldn't be real, Jake must be dreaming. He frowned at her. She said hello. She sounded slightly different, but that was probably because Jake was dreaming. He wondered where he was. Probably at Seth's house, sound asleep. Hi. Jake breathed. He sounded normal. The cars sounded real. His knee hurt for real. His head hurt for real. So what was going on!? Surely Rumor wasn't really there... was she? She was, Jake realize, this was real.

This meant that in the end Jake was going to go right back to where he was after the last time he saw Rumor. She was going to reject him in some form, and Jake's mind would deny it entail it was undeniable. Then the depression would settle back in. Jake wondered what the next thing that he was going to loose was going to be. Jake knew. His sanity. It was already slipping. Please just go. Jake whispered. I can't take for you to reject me, or anything like that again. Jake said.

Jake didn't want Rumor to go though. He wanted her to stay, and say she cared. But she doesn't Jake said out loud by accident. He didn't realize it. He reached out and touched Rumor's hand, he had to be careful not to miss. But he got it. It was her. She was there. She wasn't just a figment of Jake's immagination. Why did you stop!? Jake cried. Why didn't you just keep going and spare me the pain of talking to you again!? He continued.

[rumor victoria chevelle]

Rumor just stared. Di.. did he just tell me to go away. She didnt like that. It was like a small blow on the inside. It caught her off gaurd. She clamped her teeth down on the inside of her lip. Blood started to flow from it. She stood there. not quite sure what to say or do. He sounded so hurt.

She didnt ever really know it hurt that much. Before when shed saw him last he was nearly this bad. A worried exspression fell across her face. She was about to speak, then jake grabbed her hand and kinda yelled at her. Rumor cringed back, well more stepped back yanking her hand away from his. She backed up into the wall. She wasnt sure why or how she ahd gotten scared but she was. i. i.....i dont know was all she could manage to squeak out at the boy who towered over her.

This was not who she was. Something was wrong with her. She knew she coudnt feel this way, scared. It just wasnt right. Rumor was usually fearless but somthing was proving that fact wrong nd she wasnt sure what.

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Jake felt Rumor cringe back and pull her hand away. He was so confused, and tired that he felt sick. He could tell he had scared Rumor, especially when she spoke. I-I'm sorry. He replied, rubbing his face with his hands. Everything in his life was so off balence, and it was hard not to let one side pull him down to the ground. He under stood the saying "carrying the world on your shoulder's", because it felt like he was.

Jake sniffed sadly and wished he could see Rumor, read her thoughts off of her face. He didn't like being blind around her more then he didn't like being blind anywhere else. Jake really didn't like being around Rumor and being unable to see. I-I'm really sorry. Please. Jake said, although he didn't know what he was 'pleasing' her about. I-I-I can't. There is was again, the "I can't". Jake couldn't live with knowing he hurt her, knowing she now not only disliked him, but feared him.

Holding his breath, Jake leaned against the wall next to him, trying not to puke. He didn't know why he suddenly felt nausious, all he knew was that it was probably from all the emotions that he had been storing inside of him, pushing their way up. In other words Jake felt like he was going to puke his heart out. He reached a hand up and pressed it to his forehead.

[rumor victoria chevelle]

Rumor didnt say anything as he apoligized. She didnt know what to say. She was absoloutly speechless. She had always had somthing to say especially in the worst of times but now her outspoken voice didnt seem to be working. Rumor watched intently as jake leaned against the wall that was closest to him.

She breathed ut through her mouth and than inhaled. She took a couple steps toward him till she was maybe a foot or a half a foot away from him. Rumor reached up and grabbed the hand pressed to his forehead, she grasped it gently. She brought his hand down till it was in front of her belly. Then she set his hand there, hers holding it there. She or he's growing fast she said smiling. She looked up at jake.

A small hardly noticable smile found its way to her lips. She wanst sure what else to do. But she was almost positive that this subject would calm the both of them down.

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Jake was relieved in a way when Rumor stepped closer to him. She was so close. Jake could feel the coolness of her body. Jake felt Rumor's hands grab the hand on his head. he felt it get pressed to her belly. And he heard Rumor speak. Jake knew this was going to end badly. And all Jake wanted was to kiss Rumor, but he couldn't. He could feel the lump on her belly. Jake couldn't smile right, but he tried. Yah. He whispered.

So what now. Jake was still very confused, and he wanted to be closer to Rumor. Jake's hands were shaking slightly, and he clasped the one hand that wasn't on Rumor's stomach. He bit his lip. Is it a boy or girl? Or do you know? Jake asked, but his voice was still not much more then a whisper of disbalief.

Jake didn't know what to think. Why was Rumor suddely so nice? Why now? What about him? Mykelle. What about Mykelle. Jake's head was angled so that he was looking above Rumor, but it made no difference to him. He could make her out because of smell. Jake frowned. He was really confused. Why- why are you being... n-nice. Jake asked, unsure of the right words to use.

[rumor victoria chevelle]

Um i dont know she said softly looking down at her stomach. She could feel his hands shaking. She wasnt sure what to do now. Her heart was almost thudding out of her chest. It felt amost unbearable. She bit down on her lip again hoping the thumping would subside.

She removed her hand and his from her tummy when she heard him talk again. Rumor released his hand and looked at him. She didnt know what to say. It was driving her insane. I dont know she said as if she was a little boy who knew he was introuble but didnt want to commit to the crime. Honestly she didnt know, but somthinginside her did and that pissed her off.

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Jake could kinda hear Rumor's heart. No normal human would have been able to hear it, but it was kinda clear to Jake. He turned his head in the direction of Rumor. His own heart was thudding. Why was Rumor's? Jake wanted to be able to see Rumor's face. What are you thinking? Jake murmured.

The feeling of being close to Rumor was unbearable. He wanted to hold her, and he wanted to love her, and for her to love him back... but... it wasn't going to happen. Was it? What if it was? Jake wanted Rumor so bad. He could hear her heart... did she have feelings for him? Jake reached up and put his hand on Rumor's face. He couldn't help it.

[rumor victoria chevelle]

Rumor gulped. She didnt know what she was thinking. I mean she was thinking but it was hard to say. Im thiinking... that theres somthing wrong with me. she said telling what flowed the easiest from her lips. It had been the first thing that had come from her mind as well

Rumor felt his had touch the side of her face. The heat from him flowing into her. She closed her eyes as they started to water. Why the hell am i cryining her emotions were going wild a tear fell from her closed eyes and she turned her head to wjere her lips were pressed against jakes palm. She kissed it lightly. her heart was the only thing controlling her at the moment.

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Jake frowned slightly when she said she was thinking something was wrong with her. Jake didn't know what to say to that. He just frowned, and took his one free hand and rapped it around her back. His heart was beating hard and fast now. He wasn't dreaming.

Jake felt a tear fall from Rumor's eye, and he caught it with his finger, but didn't move his hand. He felt her lips press against his hand. Jake was breathing slowly, and his heart beat quickened even more. Jake loved the feel of her lips pressing lightly against his hand, he loved the feel of her so close to him. And he loved her.

Jake moved his hand around her head, and held it gently against the back of her neck, then he bent down and pressed his lips to Rumor's. He couldn't believe the feelings inside of him. This was real. Rumor was there. And Jake, at that moment. Did not want to be dead. He let his eyes close.

[rumor victoria chevelle]

Rumor felt jakes arms wrap around her. She felt the warm sesation of his body up against hers. she felt in heaven. Emotion poured from her. She kissed him back with fiery intesity. Her heart pounding almost thumping out her chest. She didnt know what the hell was wrong with her. It was almost like it was so wrong it was right.

Rumor felt his arms the embrace actually embracing her. Than everything went black. The emotion dissapearing it felt nice. She was in her mind locked away from the outside world. She was passed out and locked away in her mind from all the emtion that had gotten to her. Her emotions plus jakes had been to much for her complex mind to handle.

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Jake held gently but strongly onto Rumor. He couldn't believe that she was kissing him back. He could feel her, smell her, taste her. And it was all wonderful. He felt better. Just because of one kiss, Jake felt like the world was whole again. Because she wouldn't have reacted to him this way if she didn't care. And she did care then. Not only that, but she must have cared for him in a similar if not the same way as he cared for her.

Unbelievable happiness was washing through Jake. So much love. All the fear and confusion was replaced by joy and relief. And Jake was also extremely relieved. And so happy. But more in love then everything else. Everything was going to be better now? Jake ran a hand down the side of Rumor's body, just his fingers, the brought it back up, and over her arm. Then she stopped responding to him.

Jake was slightly confused at first. He pulled back from her and looked at her. She looked... asleep. Why? Jake stroked the side of her face. He could tell she was passed out. Why? Jake would have to ask her, but now he was unbelievably worried. Was she alright?

Jake then realized something. He could see. He could see her clearly. No blurriness. Jake gasped slightly. And she was beautiful. He took a moment to take her in, holding her up with one arm, then he picked her up, cradling her in his arms. Now where to take her?

There weren't many options. Jake could smell out her apartment. It would be very easy. Jake started to jog, following Rumor's old trail. He had always been good a tracking. After following a fairly short trail to the exact apartment where Rumor lived, Jake just had to get in. He fiddled with the door a bit, entail he did something and it opened. He managed to do that without breaking the door.

Jake put Rumor down on the bed in the room where she obviously slept. Jake sat down next to her. How could he wake her up? Rumor? Jake said a bit to quietly. Rumor! Wake up. Jake said, touching her cool face with his hot hand.