I won't believe the lies that hide the truth[erin]

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Jake walked slowly to the bordwalk. It was night and the carnival lights were bright and flashing. Because of his blurred vision they looked big and fuzzy. Jake was really getting tired of seeing like he was drunk all the time. Jake walked carefully, being careful not to trip on rocks or over his own feet in the arias that were not lit up by light. He had no intention of doing anything at the carnival. He wanted to go around it, so that the lights were behind him, and he wanted to sit in front of the ocean, and look at it lit up the best he could.

Jake sat down right at the water's edge. He could barely see the light in the water. It looked very interesting because his vision was messed up. Jake reached up and rubbed his eyes. Of coarse he wasn't wearing any makeup, so nothing smeared. And nothing became clearer. Jake shook his head very fast, using nonhuman speed. He opened his eyes. Nothing was better. The stupid imprint! With its stupid effects on him. Jake didn't know if he could take it much more. Who was he kidding? He wasn't going to get his way, he was probably going to go on like this forever.

Jake stood up from the sand, wondering how long he could hold his breath. He couldn't live like this, everything being so blurry, and living in knowledge that the girl that he was built to devote his life to didn't want much to do with him. His purpose in life was to please her wasn't it? Well he couldn't read her thoughts, but he had a feeling that it wouldn't hurt if he just died. Death! Jake scoffed in his head. Something that he used to never want, just days ago, but his life seemed to take a turn for the worse, and now it seemed to call out to him, offering him a release from all the horrid stress.

Jake walked out to the water, no need to hesitate, he was walking so slow that if he had any second thoughts they would have came by the time that he got to the water's edge. Jake wadded out into the ocean, like normal he wasn't wearing any shoes. He stood there for a minute, not in hesitation, but just enjoying the waves licking his feet. The cool water helped to ease his evergoing headache. But it didn't go away. He still felt horrible, and he still knew what was going on in his life. And it hurt, it hurt more then anything. Even more then his broken collar bone. He thought she loved him when he accidently fell on it. But he must have been wrong. Jake walked farther and farther out into the ocean, his speed and anxiousness getting higher and higher. Once Jake was neck high, he fell under the water, and did not intend to get back up.

[seth reed cyrus]

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Bright lights and loud noises, just how Seth loved it....NOT. Oh he hated it at this point. "god Damned humans" He said as he made his way past the carnival. Don't get him wrong he would go and pick up someone to hang out with, but there was one thing wrong. One he wasn't in the mood and two he hated this day. He made his way down the board walk feet quietly hitting the ground as he kept his pace steady. He watched people pass especially girls. He shook his head that face again. He swore if he didn't lose that fight he had with him mother earlier he was going to lose it. He took a deep breath as he headed for the water. He wasn't going to drown himself just yet.

Seth felt the light hit of the suspenders that were falling and hitting his legs. He put them there for who knows what. He shook his head lightly as he tried to occupy himself as he found his way to the beach. He felt himself stopping and watching this boy. He was a mutt and he could smell it. He stood quietly as he studied what he was doing. He watched as the boy inched to the water. Then finally sinking himself into it the murky depths. Seth shrugged at this act. It was nothing to him; well ok I did for a minute. "I’m going to regret this" he said to himself as he threw his shoes. As he did it hit the sand on the other hit him. "Ow fucking cock sucker" He yelled t his shoe as he took of the suspenders and ran in after the boy. Oh he probably was going to regret this. He jumped in the water no knowing where the other boy lay until he hit something. That was it. He grabbed any place he could before coming back up for air. He was breathing hard.

He swam to shore as he still had the other boy in his arms. Well that was a blood rusher. He said as he pulled the boy onto land and sat down. Man he swore that either he was week or that boy was heavy. He shook his hair letting the water fly every where as he looked at the boy I’m Seth, what about you? As he tried to make some kind of conversation. He really needed something to blow some steam off right now. He watched the boy with curious eyes as he waited for a reply.

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Jake was underwater, and suddenly he was acually happy. He thought he would never be again. It seemed normal that his vision was blurry. Jake was waiting, as his mind started fogging over. Jake was much less then half conciouse when something grabbed him. Jake's imediate and groggy response to this was to fight back, but he was no match. Jake was out by the time he got out from under water. Jake started waking back up halfway back to shore. Jake lay on the beach silently, writhing in pain and anger over the fact that he had been "rescued".

Jake wondered if he just laid here, he might die of something. He didn't know what. Then his "rescuer" spoke. Jake snapped into reality immidedeatly. What the fuck man! He shouted way to loud. It could have been all over! If that guy hadn't popped up and messed it all up! Why were people doing that so much? Popping up and screwing up all his plans. Jake scooted up, and was faced with a head rush. It went away quick enough.

Jake looked at the guy who had spoke. What had he said... "I'm Seth, what about you?" Jake remembered. My name's Jake. He said miserably. Seth had said something else when Jake had just got out of the water, but Jake was to confused to hear right. He couldn't remember what it was. Jake reached a hand out to shake Seth's. I'm not going to say thanks for pulling me out of the water, because I don't appriciate it. But I know you meant well. Jake murmured.

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Seth watched the boy get up as he ringed out his shirt then put it back on. Oh he knew he was dead when he got home. First a fight, then sneaking out never mixed good. then he looked back at Jake. "Nice to meet you Jake." He said as he shook the boys hand. He looked at him, then back to find his shoes. "Shit" He said loudly as he fell over a rock. "Stupid night, stupid everything. Fucking cock sucking shoe!" he yelled as he picked himself up. He pulled on once shoe then the other as he pulled on his other clothes. "Well sorry for saving you. Unlike most people i felt like i had to save you. Other than that i would have let you drowned." He said brushing the wet sand off of him.

He started back to Jake as he sat back down. He looked the boy over before looking back at the water. "Not to encourage you to kill yourself again, but next time don't try it with a carnival going on. Because you know people will see you. Just think if it wasn't me it could have been an adult and you would have been to rehab. Not my first choice." He said shrugging then going back to working on his shoe laces. He watched himself tie a bow on both shoes. He didn't bother looking at Jake for he knew he was probably still pissed like he was, but Seth wasn't going to let anyone find a weakness in him. He glanced every so often at Jake waiting for him to speak in this dead silence. He was found of it, but then again he wasn't. It felt like his nightmare of being alone with nothing, but the evil silence and the mind to play tricks and torture him.

Ever since him and his mother fought when he told her he kid of liked boys she kept doing things to him he never wanted anyone to know about. Ever since she came home pale and always looked at him like food him and her never spoke only in fights. And when ever they got along it was only for a short time then she would lock him in the basement for who knows how long. Seth shook his head trying not to let the memories come back as he grabbed something and threw it as hard as his human self would let him.

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Jake frowned as Seth tripped, then yelled at his shoe. Normally Jake would have made some sort of a funny comment on what Seth had said, but he couldn't. Nothing came to his mind. Seth's words traveled through one ear, and then left through the other, leaving a small trail. Jake just stared. Jake heard Seth speak again, but Jake still had no response, Jake just watched Seth, frowning, no grimacing. Thoughts of Rumor filled his mind. He could smell her. He knew where she was, he always could. And that didn't help. He remembered everything why didn't he dive into a shallow end?

Jake continued to stare at Seth. Jake watched him very carefully. Jake needed a friend. Someone to talk to. And this boy was the obvious choice. Seth spoke again. Jake made a sort of heavy sigh and scoff mixed. Well I can't goddamn see anything! Just blurry lights! And the shine of the ocean! Jake said, switching his gaze to the carnival. Then back to Seth. He couldn't make out really any of his features.

Jake put one hand on the ground to help himself stand, but it was a mistake. Jake had only forgotten one thing. He had a stupid broken collar bone. Wrong hand. Ah! Damn! Jake said as he fell to the ground. Jake laid there for a minute, then rolled over onto his back, feeling some seireious pain. He kinda wished that he could go get a cast, but he couldn't go to the doctor. He was half wolf, they would obviously find something wrong with him. Jake sighed. Come help me up. Jake said he didn't have room in his body for embarassment to squeeze in. So Jake wasn't embarassed for his fall.

[seth reed cyrus]

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Seth looked down at his feet as he heard no reply. "no one ever listens" He whimpered to him self as he knew no one ever did to him. His self esteem never got higher only lower. Every time he met someone he tried to no to let certain things bug him, like how everyone kid of found him annoying and wanted him to go away he didn't like that. It was his mother's fault, but he loved her. It was just that now she said she hated him and said other things to him that he knew wasn't what a parent was suppose to say. Ever since he was 14 and told her that she was fine, until her sudden change in diet. That baffled him as he kept on thinking about home. He shook his head violently as he heard Jake speak.

"Oh i see" He said as he turned back around to face the raven haired boy. He was pretty, but it seemed he acted the way his mother and a few other people acted. He pondered on this. He knew his mother wasn't normal and he refused to say the words. MYTHICAL CREATURE. NO he was not going to think nor say that word. It was impossible, was it? Seth didn't know he was a Human teenager for everything unholy. Even human adults didn't know this. Seth sighed quietly as he kept his eyes on Jake. He was trying to get up, but was failing at it. Must have been the water. He shrugged it off as he finally scooted closer to the boy. That's when he saw it. He had a broken bone. Now how did this happen?

Seth shrugged his shoulders once more before examining it and Jake's body that was laying helpless on the ground. He let his fingers crawl on his neck, then down to his collar bone feeling the out of place bone. It was nothing he was a stranger to, Seth was use to playing doctor to his own self. He pressed on the bone a bit to get a feel of how far it was broken. "Hold still OK Jake" was that left his lips as he pressed down hard on the broken bone hopping it would pop back in place. He knew it would hurt, but if it was your first time breaking a bone, you were in for serious pain. "Now I'll help you up, but please don't try moving that arm anytime soon." as he grabbed the boy's other arm and helping him up. "Now Jake where do you live so i can help you home?" He asked politely as he gave the boy a small smile waiting for his reply.

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Jake wondered why Seth didn't question him about his poor sight. Did he just assume that Jake naturally had poor vision? Jake shook it off. He really wanted to get a better look at Seth, but couldn't. And that didn't help the awful headache that chewed away at his skull. Jake bit down hard on his teeth and squinted his eyes shut tight. He could hear and smell Seth get closer. Maybe... maybe... it was good he saved Jake. Maybe. Jake had used to be against suicide, so maybe... possibly to was good that Seth had saved him.

Jake felt Seth's fingers crawling along his neck, towards his collar bone. Please be gentle Jake whispered pathetically after Seth told him to hold still. Jake did as he was told. Jake felt a huge wave of pain as Seth popped the bone back into place. Jake's mouth flew open and so did his eyes in pain, but he maid no sound. Jake heard Seth speak. Okay. But I can't promise you that I won't move the arm. If I get mad, I, uh, kinda I guess you can say I have an issue with getting mad. Jake said, reaching his good arm out. Could he trust Seth with his secret? It was to soon to tell.

Seth was speaking again soon. Uh... Jake said. He had never really lived anywhere. Jake's normal routine before he met Rumor was to turn into a wolf and go sleep in the woods. What was Jake supposed to say? He couldn't go out alone, and he didn't want to loose contact with Seth. Jake was up now, but still had nothing to say. I... uh. Great. What was he supposed to say to Seth. Jake didn't even have a family, they had all died as humans years ago.

Jake still had a hold of Seth's arm. He let go. I, um... Jake laughed. I'm not normal. I uh... kinda have a thing... were I... change. When I get mad, or whenever I want really. Jake chewed his lip. Have you ever heard of werewolves? Jake said. 'Cause I'm one. Jake said. I'm a very pathetic messed up wolf. I swear I haven't always been like this. Jake added quickly. All broken and depressed and stuff. I was fine just like, three days ago. But my issues can't pass unless this girl completely changes how she wants her life to go. Jake explained, then waited for Seth to tell him he was crazy.

[seth reed cyrus]

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Seth watched the boy as he spoke. Seth was confused, sure people got mad, but if you had something broken you normally wouldn't move it. "Um....Ok..." As he gave the boy a strange look. Jake was something else and he liked it. Jake wasn't telling him to leave the fuck alone. Normally any one would have turned him away after he asked if they were OK, but Seth being a bit stubborn wouldn't leave, until the person could get up and walk then he kind of would leave. Mostly he left cause they would threaten him. Jake didn't do this and for once he was happy about that. Seth just wanted to hug him and say how he was loving this moment, but he refrained himself from doing so.

Seth watched as he was trying to figure out where he live. Seth walked slowly still holding on to him as he tried to figure out where he lived. "Don't worry I'm sure you will remember. As he gave the boy a small smile then stopped as he pulled himself away from him. OK this is where he was going to get rid of him. He stood there as the boy baffled on about his anger issues. Was he having one right now? Was he trying to tell Seth to get lost nicely or in a cruel way? He didn't know so he stood there like a shy 5 year old. He watched as Jake kept spouting off about how he changes. "like my mom does?" He half questioned and half stated. His mother was just like Jake about charging moods quickly, but then came out the werewolf thing.

Seth stood there his hands behind his back and his head dropped down to the ground. "That's cool, i like them....." he said quietly as Jake went off to saying he was one of them. That was hard to believe. He looked up at the boy solemnly and licked his lips lightly before speaking. "If you didn't want me to take you home you just should have told me. I can take a hit on when people don't want me. You just didn't have to play this cruel sick joke on me. He said as he took an unsteady breath then turned around and began walking. He was use to this it wasn't new that people wanted him gone, just the fact he used a mythical creature trick hurt him badly. Jake seemed serious about that and made Seth believe he was making fun of him for saying he did like them a bit.

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Jake shook his head at the boy when he said that Jake would remember where he live. Sure. Sure he would remember. If only there was anything to remember. Jake shook his head slowly, but didn't say anything. Seth was nice, and Jake didn't want to argue about wether he was just suffering from amniesia or not. Jake wondered if Seth would take him home with him. Jake had a feeling that he and Seth were gonna be good friends.

The temperature out where Jake was would normally be really cold to just any person, but since Jake was a werewolf it seemed warm. As did his skin. Jake was lost in his own quick thoughts, but then Seth spoke. Like his mom? What did that mean? Was his mom a mythical thingy too? Jake was to busy baffling over it in his mind to ask Seth. He heard Seth say that he likes them. Thank you. Jake said, managing a three fourths fake smile. The other fourth was he was happy about the compliment, it was new that someone liked werewolves.

Jake looked down at the sand below his bear feet. He looked there entail he felt Seth's eyes on him. Jake looked up and tried to meet them. It didn't work. Jake didn't even know if he was looking at Seth's hair or mouth or nose or eyes. It could have been ether, and it really hurt Jake's head to try and focus. Seth started to speak, and Jake listened. Whatever reamaints of that smile dropped. Ah! No! Seth no! Jake stumbled forward a few steps. No no no! I was telling you the truth! I really can't see, and I am a wolf, I could prove it! And I really do need your help. I don't have a home! Jake said in a rush, grabbing Seth's shoulder and steadying himself. Jake looked at Seth's face Blurry Blob. Jake's eyes looked very glassed over, and so much they were a super light blue. As if he were blind. Jake opened his eyes wide so that Seth could see.

[seth reed cyrus]

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He walked as fast as he could trying to get away from the boy. Really did he have to be that mean. Seth shook everything that was flooding his mind as he tried to get distance from the boy. "mom was right......" he whimpered as he tried to keep a tough front until he felt someone grab his shoulder. His mind froze and he stopped dead in his tracks. His mind was dead on one thought......MOM had found him. He didn't dare turn around until he heard the voice. Seth whipped around like a ring leader making commands to lions. He tried to free himself from the boys grasp before he gave up.

It was no use this boy was clearly stronger than him and he knew it. If the boy claimed to be what he was then he would put him out of his misery. He looked at the boy in defeat as he heard him speak. "You don't? You can't?" was all he managed to say as he let his head fall and look at the ground. Damn he didn't want to be a baby, but he was as of this moment. He took in a deep breath before looking into this Jake's eyes. He was right blind, but Seth knew he wasn't really blind. Seth twitched his noes as he began to speak. "I guess you can...s-stay with me........" He said quietly as he looked t his feet.

For the first time he noticed Jake wasn't wearing any odd, but oh well. He sighed as he kicked at the ground a bit before looking back at the boy. "If you do want t-to c-come.....We have to be very quiet." As he kept looking at hate ground and not a Jake. He felt really stupid for acting like he did. Sometimes he let things get to him to easily. He sighed before finally looking back up at him He watched Jake with cautious eyes. He wasn't afraid, he was actually happy he met him. He could feel heat from his hand, which felt really nice since he noticed it was cold.

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Jake nodded at Seth as he asked about his home and seeing. And the sight gets worse and worse. I'll tell you why if you want... Jake said chewing his lip. Jake was staring at the ground, wondering just how long it was entail he lost all sight completely. I don't have a family or really any friends ether. But I have people who don't like me. So, dude, your stuck with me now. Jake said, smirking.

Seth spoke again. He was stammering. Was he cold? Scared? Both? Uh... thank you. I mean, if... are you sure? If that's okay. Jake said, not able to help bring his gaze to the big blurry lights of water. He wondered if it would all just be easier if he ran out onto the peire and dive into the shallow part of the ocean and hope for a broken neck. Jake shook his head. Are you cold? Jake said, looking at Seth. Or was he scared? Jake would leave it at assuming he was cold.

Jake brought his hands up and let them drop back down to his sides. Whatever you say. I really need to stay with someone. And soon. Before I find some other more creative way to kill myself. And I'm sure I'll regret it in the long run. Probably. Without thinking Jake spoke his next thoughts outloud. If that makes any sense. I could probably rip my own throat out. Jake said, reaching a hand up and tracing along his neck line. He wondered what would happened if he grabbed there and pulled. He really couldn't live like this.

A small amount of pain went through his teeth as he clenched them together, so that his jaw wouldn't quiver or anything. He wanted to be strong. But how could he? His life had fallen apart in a matter of days. It was really unexpected, and wasn't giving him a chance to get used to anything. Every time something good happened, and right before he could settle in with it, something bad would happen, and right before he could settle in with it, something worse would happen. Now something good was happening. Jake wondered what bad thing was going to happen next to screw up his good.

Was this what hell was like? Did Jake somehow die and end up in hell? And he just didn't know it? Jake wouldn't allow his hand to fall of his body for anything. He wanted it to stay there entail he decided if he would take his chances going with Seth, or just try to end it all with his own bear hands. He allowed his hand to slide down over his shirt to his chest over his heart. Or would it be easier just to rip out my heart? Jake's vision got a little blurrier and darker. He had forgotten that Seth was really there. And to think he was just about to rip out his heart. Literally. God, sorry Seth. I really need help. Jake whispered. He really needed a friend. And a hug. Jake could feel his whole face was wet. You'd better not walk away like that again. Jake said.

[seth reed cyrus]

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Seth watched him as he kept on explaining his blurriness. He watched as kept on speaking. He really wanted to do something for this boy, but he was limited one things at this moment. He would give him money if his mother did give him any. He sighed as he spoke "Jake don't' worry I'm sure you will be able to see soon" As he have him a half hearted smile. Seth really wanted to drop his home and just help Jake, but he knew he couldn't live with out his mother. One she never gave him money and Two he knew no one practically. Every time he met someone she would move them again. He shook his head sadly as he looked back up at Jake. Seth was the boy to drop everything and help someone else even if he was close to death.

Seth gave him another smile as he spoke again. "Yeah it is no problem, we just have to be quiet. My mother gets pissed if she is woken up." As he plastered a fake smile on his face. He watched Jake he seemed really sad, but for reasons Seth didn't know he was keeping him n the dark. He shook his head if he wanted to tell he would and Seth wasn't going to push it. After all he was his second friend he made. He watched as Jake put his hands over his throat then on is heart. "Please don't....." as he grabbed his hand and pulled it down. He looked into the boys clouded eyes. They were so interesting. If he was a werewolf why was his eye like this? "Are you partially blind?" He asked quietly to the boy.

His eyes staid on his for a moment longer before looking back down at the ground. He needed his help? Was this another joke. The boy looked into his eyes once more before asking "You really do?" His hair falling in his face. He brought his hand up as he brushed his bangs out of his face to watch Jake. He smiled a small smile as he let the boy's hands go realizing he still had them. "Sorry...." He mumbled as he back up a bit from Jake. He was warm and liking the fact, but he didn't want to come off as a obsessive type. He lifted his head up again as the boy threatened him? He cocked his head to the side as he tried to register what he said. "Did you threaten me?" He said a bit taken back and hurt.

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Jake shook his head at Seth when he stated that Jake would be able to see again soon. No. How much do you know about werewolves? You see I imprinted with this girl, which means that my mind and body automaticly devoted my entire heart and life to her. And she doesn't love, or even like me at all. So it looks like my automatic reaction to that is that I can't see right. I don't know why. Jake said, lowering his blurry eyes. If it's too hard for me to come with you I can just stay hear... go under something and fall asleep. Jake lied. Only he knew what would really happen if he was left alone. Yes he would go hide under something, and sure he would fall asleep. But he wouldn't be waking back up. Jake shook it off. Seth would probably let him come with him.

Biting his lip, Jake nodded his head a little. I can be quiet if that is what it takes to stay with you. Please don't let me kill myself. I-I don't know what's wrong with me. I keep wanting to, then not wanting to, then wanting to, then not wanting to. Jake said, shaking his head. I don't know what's wrong with my eyes. They started doing this when the girl fell in love with an other guy. They do it every time I'm in doubt about her. And it gets worse each time. I don't know what I'll do if I loose all hope... Jake grimaced.

Jake tried to look at Seth. Yes I really do. Really bad. This is really hard. You couldn't imagine. Jake said, his voice fading to a whisper. Jake felt his arms drop when Seth let them go. Don't worry. It's good to know I have someone in the world that seems to care. Jake murmured. Seth couldn't just leave him like he had moments ago. What if he did? Well the answer to that was simple.

Jake looked at seth quickly when he spoke. N-No! I swear I wasn't. I wouldn't threaten you. You seem like a really nice guy. It was just something I automaticly say. Or- hear- better said "Please don't walk away like that again... I might die." Jake said. Now that wasn't sounding that bad now. Dying. No! Jake couldn't. He wanted to live. Kinda. He was so torn. Jake grabbed Seth's shoulder. You gotta help me! I don't like the things that keep running through my mind or the things I'm feeling. It... it's scary. I used to be so strong and fearless and just happy with myself.

Then suddenly out of nowhere this girl comes along and my life falls apart. And I have to live with the fact that I probably tore her life up also because I got he pregnant. I swear what I did with that girl was really out of character for me. Then she just hates me. And wishes I never was born. That same night... I think. It's all so fuzzy. I was like in a trance. When I see her I don't think right. And when I don't nothing seems right and it all seems so... horrible. Nothing is ever beautiful, and nothing ever tastes good. Nothing smells good. Nothing feels good. Because it all compares to her!

That's what this is like! And all wolfs like me imprint! But it's good for all of them. It only is bad for me. Because I was made for someone that doesn't love me. Jake babbled endlessly. Sharing everything that was going on in his life with this boy that he just met. Jake wasn't going to let him get away from him. Jake had already picked up on his scent and would track him if he tried to get away. But he wasn't going to tell Seth that. The last thing he needed was Seth feeling intimidated. Wouldn't that just be wonderful.

[seth reed cyrus]

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God this boy was going to be the death of him. And Seth knew it. He wanted to help Jake so much, but things weren't so green over on his life either. If fact i think they may be worse. At least she wasn't related to him and locks you in the cellar for days on end with little food. This girl Seth was thinking...NO Jake's like he could live with. Anything was better than his life. He was socially cut off from the world half the time, Seth choose to stay home and get yelled, hit, and slapped by his mother and especially her new boy friend Sage. Or at least that was what he called himself. He knew that man hated him and he knew that if it wasn't for his mother he would have been killed off. He didn't know what was right and wrong in his life. All he knew was wrong.

Seth was caught up in a slow painful death and he tried desperately to get away, but it always came back three times fold. He bit his tongue hard to make sure none of what he was thinking slip out. Hopefully his mother was out at a club with her boyfriend. Hopefully she didn't notice he was gone. And hopefully the cabinets were unlocked for him to get food for himself and Jake. That was if the boy was hungry. He listened politely or at least pretend to listen to the boy as he kept on rambling. The more he talked the more he wanted to 'save' him, but he was only human. Not a miracle worker, which he would trade anything for if he could. He gave the boy a broken smile. A real smile of hurt and anguish.

"Stop please" He said covering the boy's mouth. "Any more and i think you will make me jump off a bridge for you." As he kept his mouth covered with his hand. "i want, No i will help you. Lets just stop talking and get home. I actually want to eat something for once....." He said trailing off as he let his hand slide off the boy's mouth. It was true his stomach had been gambling and he didn't know how long he had eaten. He burped a bit; covering his mouth as he grabbed the boy's wrist. "Promise me you will be quiet when we get to my house..KAy?" He asked Jake giving him a small smile, then hugged him quickly. Making sure he didn't get him triggered to yell and to push him off.

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Jake shut his mouth when Seth covered it. Jake realized he was probably tourturing Seth with all his rambling on about his life. At least Seth knew what was wrong with him now. Seth continued comfonferming what he was thinking. You don't have to do that, but you could push me off of a bridge if you'd like. Jake said, unsure weather to give a smile or look seirious. He ended up in in a mix of the two.

The sand under Jake's feet was cool. He started to focus of that a little, instead of the terrible pain seiring in his head. The pain that never left. Jake was starting to wonder if that was what he was turning into. A walking and talking entity of pain. Maybe. But Seth was talking again. Jake shifted his attentinon to him. Jake nodded. Thank you... what do you mean for once? Do you and your family not have much money? I may have weird ways, but I have my ways to keep up a job. I do have money. If you need my help or anything. Jake trailed off of his constant rambling.

Shaking his head Jake looked at his feet. He really had issues. Big ones. Seth was talking again. Jake looked up. Was his vision a little clearer? Maybe... maybe not. Probably not. He looked at Seth. Jake still couldn't make out any distinguishing features. I promise I'll be quite. I can be quiet. I've hunted deer before, I can be quite. Jake said, holding a hand up.